A Baby I Want to Meet

There's a baby out there whom I want to meet and welcome into this world.

I am not the parent but I am as excited as any first time parent would be to see her own child for the first time.

Apparently, it's not that easy to just go say Hi to the baby. It takes painful and careful steps to be where she is.

It may sound complicated, it really is.

To say her name now is even forbidden.

I hope we could meet someday. Because I am excited to tell Dear Baby how blessed her Dad is to have her in his life.

Sunkissed Arisha

Am just so blessed to have a daughter this beautiful.

Lent 2009

After almost a year, we were again able to visit Nueva Vizcaya.

Still beautiful, still green, still rich.

But the best thing of all, I finally got the courage to go driving in town.

He Just Called

Amazing!!!

Just as when I have finished writing my earlier entry, hubby called up. My cp in my bag was on a silent mode and I have forgotten to adjust the volume but still I was able to get his call. Amazing, again!

And he was asking me out for lunch :-)

Apparently, I had to say No but I will try to make it up later, if he asks me again.

I Am His Wife

I've been too hard on hubby the past few days. I really don't know why I feel so upset about him. He did nothing wrong. He picks me up at work every night despite so. I can feel how he's been trying to reach out and how he'd get me to mellow down a bit. I am just so irritated really and I hate to admit I blame things on him just because. And for so many days now, we haven't really talked about us. We do talk but we don't talk like we're married. We don't talk like we're in love.

I read somewhere else that the good thing about marriage is that in the process, you tend to fall out of love then fall in love again with the person you married.

Am I in the process of falling out of love? Does he feel the same? Why have I been having thoughts on What if I was not married to him? Will I be happier? What if I ended up with someone from the past? Will I be happier? What if I ended up with someone I met along the way, Will I be missing Art?

Today, I have the answers to my questions. I still love my hubby and I still feel that I made the right choice when I chose to be married to him. I still find comfort in the thought that he is the person I will be spending my whole life with. I still choose not to trade the life I have with him now with someone else' life. I will miss him badly if I don't see him. I am still lucky I have a husband who stands by me even when I feel not like holding onto marriage. I know I am blessed for God gave me a husband who is a family man. And though these days we were not really 'talking', I still believe my husband is just giving me some time alone because I believe he thinks it's the best he can do now just so I won't give up on him.

I have to remind myself, we've been together since 16, we're married now for almost 5 years, we have 2 adorable kids who are so happy and secured being with us, we are not getting any younger and life is too short.

As I wrote Life is too short, I suddenly felt scared. I still pray for long life together. I still want us to be together for many many more years.

My writing this blog was a pouring out at the same time a realization. The moment I wrote about my sentiments, all the negative energies came out of me. I am now feeling better. I am now at peace again.

As I end this entry, I look forward to better moments again with my hubby. I feel that unlike the past few days, I am excited now to pick up the phone when he calls me later cos I know he deserves to hear me talking as his wife again.

I want to be his wife, again.